From the outset, they did not apply to soldier Franz, because his father was not a war victim. Her mother put her luck to the test with a lie: Her husband, she wrote, had succumbed to pulmonary tuberculosis as a result of the First World War. They bought that from her. In May 1942 I received a letter from the military district command: The son was transferred to a replacement unit.
Now you shouldn’t think of it like the soldier James Ryan, for whom the others are fighting to get him home. The story is different on the German side. In the cold of the Russian winter, Franz almost froze to death. He was taken to the hospital in Łódź, a well-known name also because of the Jewish gossip established there in 1940, the second largest in Poland in Warsaw.
Grandpa Franz said little about the war
Franz only found out in bed that he would not have to see the Eastern Front again. He could thank the mother and the frost. After months in a barracks in Koblenz, it was deployed again: to Yugoslavia, occupied by the Wehrmacht from spring 1941. There the fascist Ustaša fought bloodily for a Croatian state with the military help of the Germans. For Franz that didn’t mean the front, not the front line, but still no life insurance.
One can assume that Franz experienced crimes. The only memory he later shared with others was not about German atrocities or the Holocaust. He merely whispered that the Croatian Ustasha had raged against Serbs and Jews like berserkers. Friend and enemy were indistinguishable. The Ustaše terror alone claimed up to half a million victims. And only a few soldiers, one hears and reads, have stayed clean in the Balkans. Franz perhaps just as little as others.
In May 1944, a shrapnel splinter struck Franz through the skull to the left, but left him alive. Shortly before the end of the war, he was taken prisoner by Russia. The injuries had not healed, one leg and both arms were lame, and malnourished, he was released in autumn 1946. Until the end he suffered – technically, as it sounds – from war damage. Franz was 61 years old.
Was my grandfather a Nazi? At least none with a seal. The former party comrades can be convicted, thanks to the almost completely surviving index cards in the Federal Archives. White vests have been tarnished quite a few. If I’m already there, why not search through the around 13 million digital copies for my own family? It won’t take long. Many party comrades with my last name appear, some from home; A coarse SA man also stares at me grimly from his passport photo.
What to do with the old photo
At home I drop the names: nobody is known, nobody has ever been talked about. The disappointment that every historian knows when he searches but does not find what he is looking for is this time sibling with the relief: My grandfather did not join the NSDAP. But what do index cards, if they exist, say about people and their political attitudes? I don’t get a final certainty of how he thought or what he did.
The “Wochenschau” picture, in the same old wooden frame as before, hangs in my parents’ living room. As a central star in the middle, other photos around the outside. At some point – and I very much hope it will last – it will come to me. What to do with a picture that you still look at like the child, with more knowledge, but comparatively alienated?
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Some suspect improper maintenance of tradition: That doesn’t belong on the wall, it’s out of date. What was wrong should not be passed on. That’s right. Then there are the others who have had enough of the dark chapters for a long time. They hide history in drawers, in attics, and give voice to parties.
Both sides have it easy in their own way. Not in the middle, more on the edge or in the corner, but the war portrait will still have a place. It’s not easy, but it shows Grandpa as I only knew him in one way and never in another: a young soldier from the “Wochenschau”.
Icon: The mirror
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