Well, I failed completely at school, and I’ve never worked, I don’t have any training, and I can’t live independently.
But it wasn’t laziness. It was just that I never really had the strength to learn well at school and to do the best at school.
I could only give the minimum. If I tried harder, I was often too tired to go to school the next day.
Of course my parents thought I was just being lazy. And instead of going to a doctor together, there were beatings.
They thought they could “discipline” me by hitting me as a teenager.
Of course it didn’t work.
At some point I ran away from school completely.
Which of course made my parents very angry. But that was almost close to completion.
I have been kicked out of other schools before when I had similar symptoms.
Even if I had finished school. Then only with miserable grades.
My parents then thought about throwing me out the door when I was 16. But they didn’t do it yet.
For a while they believed me that I had chronic fatigue etc., but they refused to take me to a doctor.
And when I went to the doctor, he brushed me off again. Because it can’t be the case that a young person is physically chronically ill.
Then my parents started thinking again that I was just faking and being lazy.
That’s why they throw me out at 20.
The only reason why I didn’t starve or freeze to death on the street was because I knew someone who would take me in temporarily.
Then I received social assistance and, thanks to my autism diagnosis, I was able to live in assisted living.
Not because of chronic fatigue.
But the therapist I had at the time also thought it was all psychological and laziness. And he tried to make me less “lazy” and
He criticized the authorities and my carers for not putting enough pressure on me.
Because he just thought I was mostly lazy.
Even small efforts such as: B. Cooking then leaves me completely drained for the rest of the day.
I can’t really do sports either, because when I try to do sports regularly I’m usually so weak that it doesn’t do much good, and when I do try to push myself I’m completely exhausted afterwards and nothing works.
I also sleep a lot and lie in bed a lot.
I’m not completely physically healthy because no healthy 23 year old can be that physically weak.
The problem is finding a doctor who takes me seriously and doesn’t just see my young age.
Without healing this chronic fatigue, I will never be able to achieve anything in life.
