As I sit down to write these lines, I really want to escape from my suffocating married life.
I was afraid to go home because my wife demanded too much sex, after finding out that I was dating a younger female colleague.
My wife and I come together with a beautiful love. She is the daughter of a well-to-do family, and I am a good boy.
More than 10 years of living with my wife, sometimes we are not satisfied with each other, but I have never thought of having another woman.
When the children were young, my wife and I lived quite comfortably. Now, with older children, expensive education, we inevitably have times of quarrels about money. Conflict to the point of breaking the marriage is not, but it is enough for the two of them to feel more pressure when they go home.
I feel regret for missing the “couple”, and then have to spend suffocating days in my own house (Artwork: Freepik).
A few months ago, my company recruited a series of new employees, because some of them decided to quit their jobs to turn to business. Among them, there is a sister born in 1995, 13 years younger than me.
Right from the first meeting in the company’s dining room, I was quite impressed with her delicate face and lovely smile.
After that day, her eyes and smile remained imprinted on me. Every time I go home, I just hope it’s morning so I can meet that girl. At the company, every time she went to get water, I had to look up.
From that point on, I started to get discouraged when I saw the scowl on my wife’s face or clamored for the messy, sloppy wife in the kitchen. However, I remained rational by calming myself down, clearly distinguishing between “infidelity in the mind” and wife and children at home.
A month later, the opportunity came unexpectedly. I was assigned to go on a business trip with my boss and the girl that I was “bewitched” by for a long time.
After receiving the information, I was overjoyed as if something important was about to happen. A week of waiting for a business trip is as long as a month. When the time of departure finally arrived, I felt like I was let go of my family to be free of my emotions.
The week-long business trip was a good opportunity for me to approach a young female colleague. After chatting to find out, she just got divorced half a year ago, after a period of incompatibility. Perhaps in need of attention and sharing after the divorce, the female colleague was quite open.
In the past, when I went on a business trip, I only wished to return to my wife and children soon, but this time I wished that time would pass slowly. During the business trip, after dinner, she and I met for coffee, talked about life, love…
She knew that I was married, but she was not shy, because of the concept that “man or woman after marriage must have external relationships”.
At the end of the business trip, her and I became closer. We often go out for coffee and lunch in the “office date” style.
Unable to persevere any longer, I told the truth of my feelings. Instead of reacting, she immediately agrees to let the two enter into an extramarital relationship secretly.
Our affection, interest, and afternoon date were quickly noticed by our colleagues. Not long after, the affair with a colleague reached my wife’s ears, everything broke.
My wife got jealous at the company, making me extremely embarrassed. Fortunately, her lover’s behavior was quite skillful, accepting an apology and affirming that the two would stop.
My wife accepts forgiveness but she seems to have become a different person. From a woman who doesn’t care much about “bed”, my wife asks for sex anytime, anywhere, increasing frequency makes me panic.
Even, there are days when both are tired, she still does not let go.
In the past, I wanted my wife to take the initiative in sex once, but now, I become a passive person.
Even, there are nights when I only determine to “pay the cards” to finish the responsibility due to the constant frequency and too dense.
If he rejects his hand, his wife will become angry and then begin to argue and criticize about the “couple”. She was suspicious when I came home late, went out drinking with friends and was ready to threaten a divorce if she still wanted an outside relationship.
Confused about my wife’s change, I decided to ask frankly the reason behind. She replied: “You have to be like this so that I don’t think of you as young and beautiful outside. At home, I have finished all the cards, there is no time to think about anyone else”.
When I told what was going on between my husband and I to a close friend, I understood, that might be how the wife reacts when she finds out that her husband is having an affair. She has no choice but to vent her anger with sex to affirm that her new wife is number 1, preventing “small tam” from harming the husband and wife relationship.
Just because I missed the “love thunder” and the relationship was not long, the consequence I had to bear was the tragedy of “sex” at home.
I am living in physically and mentally exhausting days. I feel regret and don’t know how much longer I can endure with my current suffocating married life.
