Nikkie tells in the fourth episode of the documentary series that she was always afraid that people only knew her because she is transgender. “And not because of what I did.” At the beginning of last year, Nikkie decided to tell her audience that she is transgender, or as she prefers to say: “I was born in the wrong cover.” People now know about Nikkie’s former secret. “That has now happened, but I know how to help people with it”, says Nikkie. “So that creates a good balance.”
In the episode we see that immediately after the video in which she revealed her secret, Nikkie says that she is feeling good. “It feels very nice. It feels very strange to say, but it is nice”, says Nikkie to her best friend Linda Hakeboom. Not even Linda knew about Nikkie’s past. “When I heard it, I immediately thought about the pain you must have had”, says Linda, while Nikkie was mainly afraid that she had damaged Linda’s confidence.
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Nikkie now loves that she no longer has to ‘look back’. Because the reason she shared her secret with the world was because someone was blackmailing her. “I no longer have to wait for exciting emails. I have nothing left.” And that feeling makes for the ultimate experience of freedom for the makeup star. “Freedom is waking up and thinking, ‘I have no secrets.’ I wake up in the morning without having anything to hide from anyone. And that is freedom. “
You see the episode of NikkieTutorials: Layers Of Me here back.
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