«I locked myself in the bathroom to cry»- Corriere.it

More than two years ago she had chosen Verissimo to reveal the breast cancer that had struck her and that had arrived like a bolt from the blue. And always in the living room of her friend Silvia Toffanin that today Samantha De Grenet wanted to tell her about her battle against the disease. When we talk about cancer, we talk about what physically happens – said the former model and TV host – while the whole psychological part is hardly talked about, which is sometimes even difficult to explain. The body changes, the way you face life changes, you no longer look in the mirror, because you don’t like what you see, you don’t recognize yourself and you don’t want to accept yourself.

She herself experienced these terrible moments, during which she locked herself in the bathroom to cry, to hide her pain from those close to her. The people next to you suffer your mood swings, your sadness, even if you try in every way to hide them, but not that you can do it all day – continued De Grenet, visibly moved – so you close yourself in bathroom crying, then you go out and move on, because you realize that you are extremely lucky to have people close to you who love you and help you overcome the illness and all the hardships that come after.

He also hid the seriousness of his situation from his parents, because he didn’t want to make them suffer. For a parent to have a daughter who tells you “I’m sick, I have to have an operation”, not a good thing – admitted the showgirl – . I wanted them to know what was going on, because I didn’t want them to feel left out by telling them later. But I told him very lightly, as if it were nonsense. In reality, it hasn’t been a walk in the park and in any case it hasn’t been a good time for them either. Now you still have two years of therapy ahead of you, but from a psychological point of view the situation has improved a lot.

I learned to accept myself – concluded De Grenet – and I accepted having a different body from the one I had before. That’s okay, I hide the defect and highlight the part that is better, I’ve really made peace with myself. Before I had a really terrible relationship with the mirror and I’m also referring to when I was a kid and I was a model, but today I look at myself and I’m happy with what I see, because I’m a good person, I’m a real person and this is fundamental for me.