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Sometimes you just can’t figure it out on your own and you might use some advice. Every Tuesday a reader then recounts his dilemma.
Lilly (30) is married to Derek (33) and Kick’s mother (4).
“After a brilliant pregnancy and a regular birth, I was already eager for a new one pregnancy before Kick was one year old. Derek and I have both dreamed of a big family all our lives, and now that the first is born, that desire has only grown stronger.
Dream in tatters
Nature was kind to us and on our son’s first birthday, we kept our last secret to ourselves; this day revolved around Kick. The initial pregnancy failed after seven weeks. Sad, but no cause for concern. We dried our tears, let go of our desire to recover from our loss, and four months later I was pregnant again.
“Another miscarriage followed, I saw my dream of a large family more and more shattered”
I was a little hesitant when I was seven weeks old midwife for an ultrasound. Everything looked good when I lost blood at eleven weeks, and soon after the fetus. Another miscarriage followed, I saw my dream of a large family more and more shattered. I was very happy with Kick, I could no longer bear the pain of another miscarriage. So I told Derek that I no longer had the courage to have a second child.
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The fifth time
Derek remained cheerful in a healthy environment pregnancy to believe. And even though we were careful, I got pregnant a fifth time. From the positive pregnancy test I could only cry. Of course I wanted another child, but mentally I was already preparing for the umpteenth loss.
“I panic at the slightest pain”
The pregnancy lasted and I am now five months pregnant. The gynecologist keeps an eye on me and no reason was found for my miscarriages. “So I would enjoy your pregnancy as much as possible,” he says. But I can not. I don’t dare to attach myself to my baby and I’m 24 hours a day Worried for everything that can go wrong. I panic at the slightest pain. It’s not good for my child’s health, but I don’t feel dull. How can I stop letting my miscarriages control this pregnancy? “
Other episodes of the dilemma? Every Tuesday there is a new story on KekMama.nl. Read the previous dilemmas here.
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