Holly Madison had ‘traumatic’ first night with ex Hugh Hefner | Stars

entertainment">Madison was invited to a night out with Hefner in 2008. They spent some time in a club and then went back to the Playboy Mansion along with some other women. However, it was not the night she had envisioned. “I didn’t expect to share the bed on the first date. He was literally pushed on top of me. After we had sex, I felt ashamed and it had more of an emotional impact on me than I imagined.”

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entertainment">She goes on to say that she’s always admired Hefner, but was shocked at the idea that the others knew what had happened between them. “I thought he was very smart and I looked up to him a lot. I liked him and the idea that I had to share the bed with him didn’t scare me that much.” People around her told Madison that it would have been better if they had left the situation at that point, but she herself felt that she should stay. “I couldn’t turn it back. When Hefner asked me to move into the Playboy Mansion the next morning, I felt like I was finally being respected.”

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