Billie Eilish Returns to Her Roots with “Hit Me Hard and Soft”

Now 22 years old, Billie Eilish wants to introduce herself to the world again with “Hit Me Hard and Soft”. In fact, the artist we met at just 17 years old returns to her roots with an album similar to her first work, “When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?” , released when she was the best version of herself.

To offer a record that fits who she is today, Billie Eilish she got lost but got better herself. She, who was forced onto the scene at just 17 years old with her debut album “When We All Fall Asleep, Where Do We Go?”, saw the young woman she was hiding in the shadows to let the artist warm. And no 17 year old is ready for that.

Fame, which often makes us dream, tends to make the people we admire feel unhappy and alone, even if it means to lock themselves at home and experience nothing but loneliness. Solitude can be reassuring because it allows for security. This is how Billie Eilish explained it Angie Martoccio pouring Rolling Stone : “It’s definitely not in the job description. I’ve had some really scary things happen in my personal life and my safety has been threatened many times, and it’s a big part of my life. It’s something that it’s what I have to live with…’ I’m afraid. […] It means being active and vulnerable and being seen and filmed…”

By locking herself in her house because the outside scared her, the artist was an enigma to the public and at first sight, she liked the idea. “It was something I struggled with,” she admitted before continuing, “I was so happy with this mystery and I think that’s 100% why I didn’t make any friends because I didn’t want anyone to know me, because I wanted everyone to think of me as something mysterious and cool. I’m very cool, but of course I don’t get anything be out of it.

And on her twentieth birthday, Billie made a sad comment: “I looked around and everyone was one of my employees. I was like, ‘Oh shit, I literally have no friends. I have no people who see me as an equal. No I am not afraid of people.. Grammys but no friends to go out with, chat with, get to know or even do nothing when you’re in your early twenties, that’s the hidden side of fame that the “Lost Cause” singer discovered. This observation drove her into depression last summer. In her diary, she had written “I know I’m lucky but I’m so unhappy.”

“It was just more real than ever.”she said. “In my whole life, I have never been a happy person. I have been a joyful man, but not a happy man. I experience joy and laughter and I can find happiness in things, but I am a depressed person. I have suffered from a lot of depression throughout my life. When things happen to my soul, or anything, I’ve always been, “Well, it’ll pass, it’ll get worse and better.” And that always comforted me, and this time I literally said to myself, ‘I don’t care.'”

His parents, his brother, Evidenceand her childhood best friend, Zoe Donahoe, helped her not sink further, as well as sex and especially masturbation which, in general, allows her to decompress and self- gain confidence: “Personal happiness is a big part of my life and a big, big help to me. People should be taken care of. I can’t stress this enough, as someone with severe body issues and dysmorphia.” To learn to love her body, Eilish masturbates in front of a mirror: “It creates such a raw, deep connection with myself and my body and I love my body like never before…”

In addition to gaining self-confidence, Billie realized one thing: she had to leave her house to find this person she calls her “2019 self”, about which time she published “When we all fall asleep, where do we go?” which she considers to be “The best time of his life” : “I was like, ‘Oh my God, I haven’t had fun in seven years.’ That’s definitely the feeling I had because who knows about going to the Grammys at 17 and winning five? But in my life, I realized that I didn’t know much i went out for five years.

So even though it scares her, Billie Eilish is biting into her part and is delighted to be able to say that she “In the world for once”.