Billie Eilish For Years Thought Her Body Was Boycotting Her: 'I Hated Myself'

CelebrityBillie Eilish (21) performs alongside some climate activists on the very first video cover of fashion magazine Vogue. The singer confesses in the accompanying interview that for years she felt her own body was turning against her. “I was angry at the pain he caused me,” she said.

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05-01-23, 11:30

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Singer-songwriter Billie Eilish confesses the true meaning behind her song “My Future,” which focuses on self-reflection and personal growth, during an interview with Vogue. At age 13, she suffered a hip injury, which forced her to put her dream of a career as a dancer on hold. For years she has therefore had the feeling that her own body was ‘obstructing’ her, ‘boycotting’ her. With all the consequences of her. “During my teenage years, I hated myself. A lot of that hate came from anger, the anger I had towards my body and how angry I was at the pain it was causing me and the things I lost because of it. She continues, “I felt like my body was playing tricks on me for years. I really had to go through a process and realize, ‘my body, it’s me’. And she’s not going to get in my way.”

Body dysmorphia

It has long been known that the young superstar has a love-hate relationship with her body. For example, she has repeatedly stated in interviews that she deliberately wears loose clothing so that she can hide her body and not be able to criticize anyone about it. In 2020, she confessed to ‘Dazed’ that she’s also avoided her own reflection for a long time. “I have always been concerned about my appearance. This was my ‘high point’ body dysmorphia. I couldn’t even look at myself in the mirror”. Body dysmorphia is sometimes referred to as “imaginary ugliness”. It is a mental illness in which a person is deeply concerned about defects in appearance.

In 2021 he continued in ‘The Guardian’: “I see people online who look like I’ve never looked at them and then I think: ‘how do they look like this?’ I know this industry and what people use in photos and that what looks real can be fake. But still I look at it and it makes me feel bad,” she said. I am very confident in who I am and am very happy with my life. is?”