I am Isa, 20 years old and in order to continue with my life, I need an assistance dog and I need your help with that. I would really appreciate it if you read this message, share it and make a donation.
I am vulnerable
I want closeness, a hug, a warm arm around me.
But be careful, I sting.
I will push you away because I’m afraid.
I don’t want to be alone
I can’t be alone.
I have had a lot of treatment over the past 10 years. The first years were outpatient treatment for autism, I then also went to the VSO. During my time at the VSO, traumatic things happened, as a result of which I now have PTSD and my eating disorder and OCD became very serious, so that I tried to gain control over the re-experiences. My life consisted solely of reliving and taking control, among other things, through my compulsions and obsessive thoughts that I could not be disturbed in, without causing violent escalations. This meant that I had to be forcibly admitted to Curium LUMC 4 years ago. Since then I have been staying in clinics. In the meantime I have been to Curium, the Bascule, again to the Curium, the Fjord and the Lupine. With each admission my complaints seem to diminish slightly, only to return very strongly. During my last admission I heard that there were no more treatment options. The best next step would be sheltered housing, but the waiting list is still at least 1.5 years. So there’s a good chance I’ll go home. I have been finding life too difficult for years. I tried school several times, but it never worked, so I had to quit. I feel lonely and when I want to participate in life I can no longer filter the stimuli and all the stimuli come in hard, eventually causing me to panic. Because of my PTSD I often have nightmares, which also makes me panic. During panic I become introverted and cannot ask for help.
I can no longer do that on my own, which is why I would like an assistance dog. The assistance dog can help me with this. An assistance dog can be alert for me, so that I notice that I don’t have to be. If a service dog shows me that she is there in difficult moments, I can let it go. Being close to a service dog also helps me sleep better and can help me get out of nightmares. With an assistance dog I will be able to do all the things that are normal for everyone, but that require a lot of effort. Things like going to a store and taking public transport. With a service dog I no longer feel alone.
Unfortunately, a suitable dog and the training of an assistance dog are very expensive. I have a Wajong benefit and therefore I cannot pay for the assistance dog. I would like to ask for your help, would you help me a lot by sharing this message and would you like to donate something? Small or large donations, I am very happy with everything.
Thank you, of course I will keep you informed of my progress.
Love Isa
Photo; Marieke Struijk, marked by life in Rotterdam
2023-10-02 00:20:05
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