The reason why Semin’s love story can’t start.
Mr. Hyungseok asked. Why can’t I date? But what about me, I want to be a good person? So I can’t do it.
romantic relationship. That’s very difficult. It seems like everyone else is doing it easily, but I find it really difficult… So, Hyung-seok, I think he’s a good person like he said, so I’m afraid.
‘Do you want to date me? ‘I’m a very good person.’
I never forgot what Hyung-seok said to me. How can he confess that he is a good person? How can this person be so sure that he is a good person? It was really amazing.
But, me. I think I’m a pretty good person too. But, I become very cowardly when I only try to date. If you start a relationship, it doesn’t last long and you only see the bad aspects of the other person. And then, ‘Ah. I guess it’s not my destiny. Let’s break up. It’s not polite to that person to even think like this, so I’m breaking up. But, it’s not that it’s not polite to that person, it’s that it’s not polite to end things so easily. So my relationship took a long hiatus. Because I couldn’t start. I was constantly afraid. I was so scared when I tried to get to know someone. I’m afraid I’ll become a bad person again.
But actually, I thought I was a good person. It’s just, what if I show everything about myself and this person ends up hating me? I was wondering what would happen if I were left alone again, so I decided to throw it away first. I know it’s bad, but I think it will hurt me less. That’s what I thought. So, even though he was bad, I thought he was a pretty good person. So, until recently, I wanted to be in a relationship. I thought that if I met my true partner, my cowardice would disappear. So I decided to like someone I’ve been seeing for quite some time. To have less fear. But in the end, it ended before it even started. I wonder if my heart was that light, I was disappointed.
however. My opponent probably didn’t always know. I never thought I would be such a bad bitch. So they will feel more betrayed and hate me more. You will continue to hate me.
So I can’t meet Hyung-seok. The end of my cowardice was admitting that I was a bad person. Now that I admit it, I don’t think I’ll ever be a good person. So I became more cowardly. I thought I would become a good person if I admitted my cowardice, but when I admitted my cowardice, I became a bad person. My lifelong wish was to get married, but now I want to get rid of that wish. It’s so miserable if you like someone and then get abandoned by that person. Even though I know that, I have lived like that all this time.
But, I want to continue to believe that I am a good person. I only do bad things and live badly, but I wish I could still be a decent person. I don’t want to get hurt, become cowardly, or feel lonely again. I’ve seen Hyung-seok for a long time, and I’m sorry that our last days were so shabby. I’m sorry I was bad.
Semin had been thinking this way for a long time, but only very short sentences came out of Semin’s mouth.
“I’m a bad person. I don’t think I know Hyung-seok well. That’s why we can’t meet. I’m sorry.”
After saying that, Semin left the cafe. And then I thought. Let’s just live our lives satisfied that no one gets hurt by us. In fact, Semin knew Hyungseok’s feelings. However, he did not refuse, and eventually the words came out of his mouth asking me to meet him. Semin also had a crush on Hyungseok, but she couldn’t agree to his question because she felt like it would hurt him again. So the romance between these two never started. Because the end was decided from the beginning. It was predictable for Semin that just when they were most happy with each other, they would start to dislike the other person and start to be afraid of themselves. So Semin was always afraid of the beginning. I always thought about what would have happened if I had never developed a relationship with Hyung-seok because of that fear, but I ignored Semin because he was a bad person. And, as befits a bad person, he said goodbye to Hyung-seok.
It wasn’t that I didn’t like it, but it wasn’t that sad either. Because Semin was a bad person.
Semin was a bad person today, and he will be a bad person tomorrow too. In this way, Semin’s lifelong wish to get married is erased from his life, and he will die alone. That was the right ending for Semin. Because Semin was a bad person.
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When Semin left the cafe, Hyungseok regained his senses. When I think about the last time I met Semin, she somehow drew a line for herself. It was clearly a line that had not existed before, but I could see that it had appeared in just a few days. Semin suddenly asked Hyungseok about his ex-lover and whether he had any regrets. I was embarrassed and didn’t want to ruin the beginning with Semin, so I changed the subject, but Semin didn’t know how to give up. Something was strange. Even if we couldn’t date for a long time, I still wanted to meet Semin. If there was something disturbing, I wanted to fix it. Because Hyung-seok was a good person.
Semin sometimes said that he was not a very good person, but Hyungseok knew that. Semin is also a good person.
Semin always lived with worries. How can I live better? There was no way such a person could be a bad person. In particular, if someone had a problem, she would stay up all night to listen to everything, even if she had an important schedule tomorrow. He was a person who comforted me and told me not to be in pain. How could she be a bad person like that? But since she kept saying that she was a bad person, she just thought that there was some reason or that the standards for a good person were high. I thought I could just keep telling myself that I was a good person. However, Hyung-seok’s relationship with Semin ended before he could even begin. However, Hyung-seok decided not to give up. Because I didn’t think that Semin, who said he was a bad person, was really a bad person. Hyung-seok kept watching Semin because he was a better person than himself. Even though he ended things by saying bad things to his past relationships, Semin continued to feel sorry. I want to hold on tight to the girl who cosplays as a bad person, without letting go of her past relationships. That’s what I promised.
1. Can you discuss the character traits of Semin and how they have impacted their relationships in the past and with Hyungseok?
2. What do you think caused Hyungseok to end his relationship with Semin so quickly, and how could they have handled the situation differently?
3. How did Hyungseok’s perception of Semin as a “bad person” affect their relationship and interaction with each other?
4. What were some of the challenges that Hyungseok faced when trying to reconnect with Semin?
5. Do you think it’s possible to truly get over past relationships and move on to new ones while still considering the well-being of your former partners? If so, how can one navigate these complicated emotions and situations?
