/ world in the present day information/ It has been the third day since I returned to the asylum – that is what I name not solely Sofia, but in addition your entire absurdity of the human dormitory. It was completely different in my favourite forest, on the Predella, though even there, regardless of the silence and the music of the birds, my acquainted metaphysical uneasiness assailed me repeatedly. And that within the absence of web, newspapers, virtually no tv and even the enjoyment of the incompetence of my cell operator, who by means of the dearth of protection supplied me with a further lack of reference to the world.
/ world in the present day information/ It has been the third day since I returned to the asylum – that is what I name not solely Sofia, but in addition your entire absurdity of the human dormitory. It was completely different in my favourite forest, on the Predella, though even there, regardless of the silence and the music of the birds, my acquainted metaphysical uneasiness assailed me repeatedly. And that within the absence of web, newspapers, virtually no tv and even the enjoyment of the incompetence of my cell operator, who by means of the dearth of protection supplied me with a further lack of reference to the world. Certainly, why ought to I fear, since with my loss of life, at any time when it occurs, the world for me will now not exist? The platitudes surrounding the care of kids and future grandchildren solely masks the worry of realizing the crystal purity of this matter and the slapping reality of the futility of every particular person existence resulting from its undoubted finish. Marguerite Yoursenaard used to say that “having the ability to throw off the masks is likely one of the few benefits of rising outdated”…
For the third day now, I see that my friends, approaching 60, and even older than me, don’t even consider throwing away the masks, as if it’s going to lengthen their youth. I take heed to seemingly clever phrases across the Istanbul Conference, say, however I don’t really feel the penetration of Oswald Sprengler, besides maybe for the Nietzschean assertion of Dr. Nikolay Mihailov, whom I respect immensely. While you take heed to him, take a look at his expression too – he’s unhappy, and that’s the disappointment that may solely come from the identical metaphysical nervousness I am speaking about…
Once I talked about Nietzsche, I remembered that horrible lies had been instructed about him – his sister’s nonsense doesn’t imply that he’s on the coronary heart of the ideology of Nationwide Socialism. If he had an opportunity to see it, he would hate Hitler like all regular individuals on this planet. No, Nietzsche’s superman lives in the present day, he has unfold all around the western world, HE HAS BEEN SELF-CONSCIOUS AS A GOD AGO, who is ready to create the whole lot time and again, even one thing just like the Istanbul Conference. “The bacchanalian God exploded in Nietzsche”, as Jung mentioned, however Nietzsche himself would hardly have admired what his ugly supermen are doing in the present day, “killing God”…
It’s true that Catholic Christianity or extra exactly the Catholic Church and its ministers are a mannequin of spiritual hypocrisy as they need to engulf the entire world by means of the absurd regulation of killing individuals “within the title of Christ”. It’s no much less true that the ideological constructs that changed the non secular foundations of European and American societies additionally regulate human killing, albeit due to the imagined universality of their ideologies. However the Istanbul Conference, by means of the imputation of gender-ideology, suggests not a lightning, however a sluggish and painful loss of life of human normality, which can not assist however take its revenge, though, as startling because it sounds, its weapon could be the aliens occupying slowly, however certain, “European Paradise”…
In contrast to the Catholic Church, the Orthodox Church sees no want to beat or defend Christianity with weapons, continuing from the straightforward logic that since it’s good, then God himself protects it. Certainly this historic whisper might be heard, albeit as a deafening silence in nonetheless Orthodox Bulgaria, to not point out Russia, and which means that by means of it we are able to with even higher motive perceive the absurdity of our “European belonging”…
Sartre mentioned that “existence precedes essence”, which in relation to civilizations means much more than in relation to the person human being. For almost two centuries, Western civilization managed to destroy the foundations of its personal existence, killing God, whereas in lower than thirty years, Jap Orthodox civilization, particularly within the face of Russia, rose from the ashes of ideological considering. I nonetheless suppose the comparability is absolutely gorgeous, after all for one who can first after which has the braveness to grasp it…
I am not fairly certain, however the doubt is creeping into me throughout these three days again within the madhouse that the “discussions” surrounding the Istanbul Conference are literally consciously or not overlaying up the quickly spreading Bulgarian distress – right here I imply not solely the fabric one. It appears to me that in opposition to the background of the overall terminal sickness of Bulgarian society, whose image Grandma Dora instructed us instantly, the rapturous exaltations of the political elite of all “colours” appear greater than cynical, and this is applicable with the identical horrible power to those that help them ideologues and servile journalists. And the justification of some “goal” commentators that “that is the case elsewhere” appears to me much more scary than the political and mental hypocrisy, because it lays the pre-death veil of complacency that continues to stop us from understanding ourselves…
I assume I’ve talked lots after so many days of calm silence, and I am in all probability already annoying, so I am going to cease. For now…
P.P. My nice instructor and buddy Prof. Nikolay Vassilev, to his everlasting reminiscence, used to say that “once I need to learn one thing actually useful, I sit down and write it down”…
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