Thought for a long time Trodessa (44) that she had not had a near-death experience, but a coma dream. Until she realized that she had been in the in-between world.
Hopital
“I woke up in a hospital in Gran Canaria in the summer of 2018 with great anxiety. I had no idea where I was, but I felt anything but safe. The images I remembered of me naked on a bed with doctors sitting next to me – especially at my feet – scared me very much. As if I had watched and not been able to intervene. I only learned later that I had been in a coma for a total of ten days due to a severe meningitis. I was on holiday in Cape Verde together with my husband and our two children, aged eight and five, and other family members. There I suddenly became very ill, as a result of which I was in a coma in a clinic for five days. I was then taken by ambulance to a hospital in Gran Canaria where I was urgently operated on. Then I was in a coma for another five days. Because my children were not allowed to join me in the ICU, my husband was in a hotel with them. My brothers kept watch over me. How happy and relieved they were when I finally recovered.”
Comadroom
“After sharing the disturbing images with my brothers, one of them said I had probably had a near-death experience. According to him, I was doing really badly, so it was remarkable that I had seen myself with all those doctors around me. Only later did I realize that I had indeed been naked in bed during my coma. I had bedsores and this allowed the doctors to monitor it better. They also put me in special shoes to improve my blood circulation. My brother advised me to contact Pim van Lommel, a well-known cardiologist who had done a lot of research into near-death experiences. “No,” I said. “It was just a stupid coma dream, nothing more.” I continued to have that feeling that I had had a coma dream for a long time. Until after a few months in the Netherlands I started to feel incredibly homesick for the period when I was in a coma. And that was a mind fuck, to say the least. Because why did I want to go back to my coma when I didn’t feel like it would have been nice at all?
I didn’t understand it and coincidentally I came a year after my coma Pim van Lommel in return for. After I told him my story while crying, he said, ‘But, you must have had a near-death experience. The intense feelings of homesickness that you describe are so typical of an ‘out of body experience’ and a trip to ‘the in-between world’. You just don’t have any images of it, but your body and soul have stored that peaceful feeling that you experienced then. Hence the great loss.”
Realize
“For me this was an eye-opener. I realized that the doctors in Gran Canaria had only helped me. This brought me back from my ‘real home’ where I had experienced so much peace and an ultimate feeling of coming home. Although the negative images predominated at first, they were soon replaced by my strong homesickness for the in-between world. Hence those great, contradictory feelings. Thanks to my near-death experience, I realized that I should mainly use this life to make my dreams come true. I have already realized one of these by writing my book The Meaning of Death. For this I interviewed several people who only had a short time to live. In addition, it feels like my mission to make people aware of their time here on earth. Before my meningitis, I had lost my mother at 24 and survived an aggressive form of breast cancer at 36. So I already knew that life was not all beautiful, but I was only able to truly accept that after my near-death experience. That still gives me a lot of peace.”
Text: Renée Brouwer | Image: Marieke Tegenbosch, Empire Studios
2024-03-03 18:00:05
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