Ernst Daniël Smid sees himself changed by Parkinson’s disease, he says in the new episode of Rooijakkers Across The Floor.
“When I look at myself on such a day, I think: where have I gone?”, The 67-year-old singer tells Art Rooijakkers.
“I am becoming such a different person. I think I can never find out who the real one is. Am I at home gloomy, or is that the image that comes with the disease? I feel that I am changing and I am not happy with it. There are things that give me peace of mind and that should no longer be, but I am a different person. “
Blacksmith, who was diagnosed with Parkinson’s a few years ago, can still sing light work, but hard work no longer. That he could participate in last year The Masked Singer he considered a great honor. “I’m still so grateful to the crew for that.”
‘I’m not going to hide’
Although he notices that he can do less, Smid does not want to hide from the outside world. “In a successful society, illness is seen as a weakness. But I don’t want to have had the verdict of: you have Parkinson’s and you have to say goodbye to life. I’m not going to hide.”
He describes his current state of mind as “expectant”. “Not without ambition, not that. I would still like to do things, but whether I can make them come true? That doubt sometimes makes you schizophrenic. That you think: I am Ernst Daniel, I have the technology, I have You can never unlearn swimming. But it is what it is. “
Rooijakkers Across The Floor can be seen on Videoland and will be broadcast on RTL 4 on Wednesday evening. Smid will release his autobiography in September.
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